I have to say I’m stoked that mercury is going to stop in it’s tracks tomorrow to turn direct. This retrograde period has been taken it’s toll on me. I have been feeling this one in a way I never noticed feeling the others. Besides being a time to avoid buying electronics and cars, or prepare for horrible communications. The retrograde period is also a time to reverse mentally. Mercury is the planet of the thought process indeed. Since retrograde just means apparent backward motion think of ones thought process doing just that. This is what I have noticed recently in my own experience. I have come up against some very old demons this week but the beauty of something like this is that it offers a chance to heal. Heal hurts that can easily be pushed into the depths of one’s consciousness by everyday life. Last night I came face to face with the ghosts of some people I never wanted to meet again. But because of this I was able to feel some rage that I didn’t have the self worth to feel before. Now I feel better able to process the emotions and LET IT GO. The past truly is powerful when we use it for its higher purpose as a tool for learning. It’s been brutal gut wrenching and infuriating but honestly I appreciate the opportunity for healing. I know I am a better being today because of what happened in my mind last night. Of course I have also been experiencing the communication snags, and foggy thinking as well. Grateful and excited for forward motion.
I came across this article last night pretty randomly, as I wasn’t looking for anything about dental work. I do have a broken tooth that has turned into a cavity and I have been trying to decide how I’m going to deal with it, so thats why it captured my attention. I have been aware of the mercury content in dental amalgam for some time now and I just can’t get comfortable with the idea of this element sitting as close to my brain as my teeth… permanently! Really I would rather just do without the tooth, It’s a back tooth and it can’t be that big of a deal. I went to a dentist about 6 months ago and was told that I may or may not need a root canal, but definitely a filling. To be honest I found the guy kind of shady and I didn’t really want him to put his hands in my mouth… just something about the vibe I guess but I was already there so. He looked at my teeth and decided that I needed a cleaning, something I had not had done by a dentist since I was a kid. During the cleaning all I could think was I didn’t realize how abrasive this comes off. The scraping, scratching super brushing and sucking just didn’t feel like the best thing for my tooth enamel. I reminded myself that this guy is a licensed professional so I’m in good hands but this is dangerous. After I found myself wondering if the cleaning had only been necessary because I wasn’t having the filling put in. Not that I don’t believe that some professionals along these lines go into what they do for altruistic reasons or the love of what they do. The truth of the matter is these people are just that and we are susceptible to greed and fallacy. The information I knew already caused me to put my foot down about the filling but things I read in the article just confirmed my intuition about the practices and contraptions employed by this and other dentists. Their information is no different or better than that we can find on our own nowadays, don’t let anyone back you into a corner if you don’t feel sure and make sure your sure. Just because tools and practices have been in use a long time doesn’t mean they are best for you. licenses are not certificates of omnipotence or moral purity, you wouldn’t put your health in the hands of any other stranger blindly. My goal at this point is just to have the tooth pulled FUCK THAT!